My Latest Crush

This is weird. Not the me having a crush part, just the person who I have the crush on. She and I met while I was at Hampton. She was a classmate of mine. One day she and I just started talking, I forget what sparked it (I think I was trying to get at her roommate). Anyway, she and I exchanged numbers, we chatted, she came through, we DID NOT have sex and that was ok. We still talked throughout the semester on a friend level and then graduation came and went and so all that ended. Flash forward about a year. She had written a book about her life. Some real deep, like Grand Canyon deep shit in there. I remember she posted a segment of it on her MySpace page. And the shit hit me hard. It was about a time she and a guy were "together" and how basically dude raped her. And even though it wasn't about me, that shit hit a serious nerve. Maybe it's because it gave me perspective on how the other side of the coin is ya know? Like when we as men keep trying to push the limit on how far someone will go. We never consider the mental and emotional stain it leaves on a woman. Well after reading that, I definitely made a conscious decision to never be that guy. So I sent her a message saying just that and how I thought back to our encounter in college and how that could be perceived as trying to do too much too soon. So she hit me back saying I wasn't anything like that and how she enjoyed her time with me. Well like I said, that was damn near two years ago and I can't get her off my mind. She's got her own business, she's an award winning author, she's into the church thing. On paper and in person, she's doing it. And I have a crush on her.